the path is to find...

And so I look back upon my life,
And all I find is pain and strife,
So I think and slumber in disdain...So is this all that I have been upto,
Is this life a boon or a bane??

I neva know coz I neva planned or thought!
I just wait for the devil to unravel its show then I fought,
To this day I think , I m lonely in this wide world,
I have had a few moments which healed me but then again I bled.

I have neva been able to keep up the good,
I goof up at the moment or they end up in a wound.
All this pain , this poison that I have taken ,
has made me bitter and more hard and Lead'en.

I sometimes feel I should stop thinking about the past,
Its done and its over, But I forget its here to last,
My life goes in circles and neva ending loops,
I try to break free but end up in a soup.

Why does this happen,this circle called life,
why does it treat me like this and why do i have to fight?
why cant it be straight and a wonder like thing?
that gives me what i want and fills up my to the brim...but no.....

So how am I supposed to deal with all this?
Should I take it on the face or run away in pace,
the answers my friend are not eva known,
the path is to find...its neva shown!