Pain!!! for the better!

Each day , each nite, I toil to sleep
there is a thorn somewhere which makes me bleed;

I cry for help and try to weep
it dusnt comeout ingrained too deep;
I ask myself if its worth the pain,
and there comes the reply ,'its jus not gonna drain';

Once in a while the pain is gone,
and makes me feel I m healed
but then it gets back with twice the force and makes me reel(in pain);
To deal with the pinch, I try to be in the company I like,
but Im so lost neva sure if Im doin alright!

Sometimes I feel like getting it out 'once and for all'
And wanna live life like before the fall,
But then realise to live I need a heart,
and that is what I torn apart,

Guess I ll have to lead my life like this foreva!!
And I feel the pain is for better,
Coz it makes me feel I m still alive
If not for it I thought I had died!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!